Part of Mia

Uda deh,,klo mlm2 gne pkiran mlayang kmana2..Gag bs ditahan..
Jdi mikir pngen pny pacar,tp ngpain,,buang wkt+tnaga adjah..Duit pula!Udah aq ndiri lmyn boroz,d+in urusan gituan,bs2 jatah 1bln ludes 2mnggu doank!!
Gag malu jg noh ma tmen2 skelas,,pd akhwat2 smua...Subhanallah..
Jd mkir jg klo q ni sbnre gmpg kagum,gmpg naksir,po malah plin plan..Bisa2'a kbyang ma 2org dlm wkt yg hmpr breng,,ahahahay...Dasar DODOL gue!!
Sbnere ksian jg ne bdan+otakq tak ajak tdr mlm2 trz..Abz gmn donk,dh hmpr jd kbiasaan ney..

Takuuut aq,mndkati pngumuman ppkb UI!!!Ya Allah,,ridhai hambaMu ini Ya Rabb....

Tinggal 1hr lg.......
SEMANGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Inallaha maasabiriin..........

Cinta trletak di antara nafsu dan akal budi..
Di antara hasrat dan intelektual..
Diantara sepasang mata manusia..
Kini cahaya cinta itu sedang menari-nari..Menerangi relung-relung jiwa..
Salah satu sumbu pelita yang menyalakannya berasal dari tuturnya..
Kalimat yang lahir dari keteguhan jiwa seorang lelaki..
Beriring doa yang terentang panjang ke hamparan singgasana Tuhan..

Ya Allah,,apakah aku mencintainya.....

Ku kan slalu mencintai kalian....
InsyaAllah,, jalan terjal yang kita tempuh ini akan berbuah manis pada saatnya nanti...
Ya Allah,, bantulah kami hambaMu yang sungguh kecil ini...
Semoga Engkau senantiasa mengiringi, meridhai, dan melancarkan jalan di depan kami...
Ku harap Engkau berkenan untuk selalu menuntun kami di jalanMu yang terang lagi lurus...
Bukakanlah mata hati kami untuk senantiasa saling menyayangi dan slalu saling mengerti...
Apapun aral di depan kami... InsyaAllah, dengan ridhoMu Ya Allah, tiada yang tak mungkin...

Bukanlah doa yang panjang nan berkias,yag bertatahkan kata-kata mutiara penuh makna...
Hanya ungkapan sudut hatiku yang paling dalam, yang tak kuasa menahan perih ini sendiri...
Berjuta kata tlah kututur,tak kan bisa mewakili betapa ku sungguh menyayangimu...

Ya Rabb, apakah pantas diriku ini menerima anugrahMu yang luar biasa ini...
Hanya doa yang mampu ku panjatkan demi kebahagiaan kita bersama...
Tak kurang, tak lebih... Hanya doa mungil ini Teman...
Semoga Engkau mendengar dan mengabulkan segenap doa yang tulus kutuliskan ini Ya Allah...
Amiin Ya Rabbal Alamiin...

Astaghfirullah,,this ramadan is so hot...
With earth's eliptical orbit,,earth is on the nearest position with the sun in September...
Whoaaa...
Sun shines brightly whole of day...
Good for drying clothes,,but bad for fasting people like me...
Do nothing,,or do something lazzily...
Ya Allah,,make me strong until this evening,,until ramadan month is over...Amiin......

Hadow,,I am late to write this moment..
It must be written yesterday,,sept 12 2009...
I had an open fasting together with DA yesterday...
Nothing happened on the main event,,but in the end...
At first,,I was embarrasse because I wore the wrong dress!!
I should wear the casual,,but I wore scout dress!!But it didn't matter...

Firstly,,actually I was confused,,the event would be began but the committee still did nothing...
They only had prepared sound system and mats...
But they were stay relax...
But,,a moment be4 the agenda was read,,they're so busy prepared everything...Huh,,so bad!!
It's also because the cooker was late to deliver the food to the location,,so late... :(

But,,alhamdulillah the event held successfully...
I think I take big part in this event,,eventhough I was never join the meeting... ;D

At the end,,we were cleaning all of the properties together...
Then,,m.KaPe and m.Wid bought some firecrackers to us...
We were so have fun with it...Especially me...

At the go home time was so amazing...
In the beginning,,I only had 3bodyguards protect me in the back and front of me...
But then someone joined,,so I had 4bodyguards...
Haxhax,,cool!!
And they are my "longlife" friends,,Ichwan,Dwi,Willy and Faqih...Hehehex...

In my short time with arjuna srikandi...
Alhamdulillah,,Allah still give me a moment to remember with them...I hope it will be one of my unforgetable experience in my life...
Amiin,,Subhanallah...

How amazing I am today....
Full activities day...
School, go to course, open fasting together...
I must fit until the end of this day...
SPIIIRRRRRIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah,,tommorow will be my class's war!!!
2subject exams are on the same day...
And you'll be never imagine that:...

PHYSICS and...

HISTORY!!!!!
MasyaAllah...Can I pass it tommorrow Ya Allah...
Help me please...
And my eyes is getting sleepy now...
I'm not sure that I can finish my study tonight...
But,,I must have big spirriiitttt!!!!Don't say it's difficult be4 try,girl...
Ya Allah,,give me Your blessing and Your mercy,,so I can pass my exam well,,with best result...Amiin ya rabbal 'alamiin...
Keep try,,keep pray...

Ough!!The first and maybe the worst try out!!
I followed STIS try out this morning
And the result,,,OH MY GOD!!!!
So dissapointing!!!
Congrats to U***,,bcoz has been the 3rd rank of that try out...
I think the questions is difficult enough,,not only 4me,,but also 4 the other participant too...
Aih..Mia,,consider it as your experience girls!!!
Yeah!!! ;)

Alhamdulillah, I have found my flash yesterday...
As I guess, it is brought by oned of my classmate...
SETO!!!!!
I don't know how can my flash at his bag...
After 3 days I have searched for that, my friend said ti me that it brought by him....
Ya Allah, thank's for give me my better days...
I hope tommorrow will be better than today...
Amiin...

Dalam menjalani bulan ramadhan ini,
Ya Allah,,berilah hambaMu ini kesabaran, kekuatan, serta kesempurnaan dalam menjalani ibadah puasa hamba
Ya Allah...Semoga Engkau meridhai segala ibadah yang hamba lakukan...Semoga Engkau meringankan sgala cobaanMu yg ada dipundak hamba Ya Allah..
Lindungilah hamba dari godaan syetan yg trkutuk...
Amiin..

MasyaAllah,,how hard my life in last 3days...
Help me please,,ya Allah...
Give me somepeople who can help me to take away my problems...
I hope I can past this time,one of my hardest part in my life,without forget from my duty to one and only God,,Allah SWT...
Amiin..

Nothing happens today.
Just a little bit panic bcoz of the big earthquake this evening.7,3 richter scales bro!!
My mood is changing eventually today,anytime..
Too much school task that isn't stop screaming to me to be done!
Drama,biology's report,english written,chemistry skill's report and 2nd practice,mirror painting,Indonesian presentation..Moreover,much school tests are in front of my nose!!
And most of my pairs too much complaint,too much reason to do the task together!Aaaaaargh!

Then,I think that he's a little bit illfeel to me..
I feel that he keeps away from me nowadays..
Viuwh,,,can you explain me,,my man,,my friend...???

Alhamdulillah...
Thx for give me better night today...
Better condition,better communication...
I hope it will be some lesson to my parents,to lock the door when they do "that"...
I will forget about this,can you give me some suggestion to forget about something fast??
Hm,,I have been trying to forget about many things in the past,,but nothing can help..
Just time that can erase all of the bad fate memories of mine...
I hope,,everything is gonna be okay...
Amiin...

Today isn't better than yesterday.
As bad as yesterday,maybe worse..I don't know what will happen to me a few hours again.
Ya Allah,what should I do?
Why my day is getting worse??What should I do to fix my fate??
Astaghfirullah..What things that can fix my mood??Just sleep?My God!I have been too much sleep yesterday..
I want to avoid everything about my bad past tragedy!
I want to avoid my home!!!!!

Kampreeeeeeeet!!!Subuh2 nasib dah jelek gene gemana siech!!!Mo sahur jadi gag mood pool!!!!!Kalo kya gene yg salah ortunya apa anaknya coba!!!Ortunya deh kayaknya!!Salah sendiri pintu jagak dknci!!!Bner2 kampreeeeet!!!!

The Worst Day in My Life!!
Everything doesn't happened undercontrol!!
Rusak,,rusak,,rusak bner!!
1.Nyampe skul lupa klo da English exam,,ngebut bljr g msuk2 kkpala!Soalnya kampret bner!
2.Fsika,lumayan enak cz cm1jam,tp ttep m'bosankan!
3.Biologi,sgla yg dbcarkn o/BuJur sma skali tak bs Qmsukin kkpalaQ!G jlas neranginnya!
4.B.Jwa,lempeng2 adja sieh..
5.Nympe dtwiinet,lambreeeed bgd!Kluar,byar500perak,pndah wrnet k evienet.
6.Nympe rmh,shlt,tdrus,tidur mpe mgrb!Lalai shlt ashar!!
7.Bngun tdr lgsg buka,ma2 bru dtg lgsg ngomel knp mknan blm dsiapin.
8.Abz trawih nyalain komptr.Hancuuuuur sudah komptrQ!Jd brlipat ganda londotnya!!!Pnjm dvd pcmedia,mlah pcmavnya gag bsa!!!

Payah bgd gag siech hari gue!!!
PenghiburQ hr ni hnya:
1.Fban 1,5jam dwarnet
2.Blogging smlman
3.Sms2 gag pnting ngbisin bnusan+crht dkit...

Am I jealous??
I think not,,I am really can accept if they build a relationship again..
But,,why about my heart..I feel so hurt..
I don't know where does that pain come from...
I don't know where'd I must begin to life again...
He's change my days,my night,my life...
When can I come back to the real me???

Sepanjang jalan pulang, perasaan tak menentu.. Walaupun tak ada kejadian apapun hari ini..
Mengapa aku jadi begini? Awalnya kukira perasaanku tak begitu dalam, hanya sesaat.. Tapi mengapa sesakit ini rasanya... Tak bisa kusembunyikan sakit ini, tak juga bisa kuungkapkan..
Ada apa denganku? Apa yang harus kulakukan sekarang?
Melupakannya hanya membuatku mengingatnya, tapi menghiraukannya tak kunjung mengobati sakit hatiku ini...
He,, is so perfect..
And she,, more than perfect..
Than me,, just Allah and me that know all about me..
Apapun yang kulakukan tak membantu, tiap detik yang terpikirkan hanya masalah ini.. Tak kunjung hilang dari benakku.. Kapan hidupku kembali normal??
Hai,, Kau,, Lelaki,, Sahabatku.. Kau tlah mengubah hariku..

Aku,,,patah hati....
Au' dink...bneran pa ga...
Tapi rasanya dadaku sesak...
Kaya ditusuk-tusuk linggis,, cekot cekooot
cekot cekoooot.....
Astaghfirullah,,bantu aku...
Hanya padaMulah harusnya ku serahkan segalanya...